an oblog.

i know that it is extremely late and that i should be asleep, but i'm still on boat time.

and when you are on boat time, you sleep when you are ready.
(i'm also, hesitant to sleep bc Jonathan is sick and if he needs me i want to be able to get to him)

you have no idea what kind of obstacles i have overcome on this journey to the southern region on the americas! i've said it before, and i think you don't believe me -but i have become a scaredy cat. 

fears of the boat malfunctioning, fears of the plane malfunctioning.

i am scared of the uncommon to me. 

this trip has forced me out of my comfort zone with a swift kick in the butt, and said "Go have fun!" 

and when a trip kicks you swiftly in the butt, you better do what it says.

with a dedicated and wonderful boyfriend to calm me when i get frazzled, i made it out alive!

some tips learned along the way:

1. be open and kind to those servicing you - they will take excellent care of you if you do.

2. God always provides people you need at that point in your life when you are scared to death

3. always trust australians, and 

4. never, ever, under any circumstance, trust a monkey -they will force themselves upon you and steal your diamond earrings for fun. 

on this journey, i've done some soul searching, and thinking. 

Eat, Pray, Love so far is an excellent book, and I can't wait to finish it. Elizabeth makes herself so vulnerable and opens up feelings that, i think, every girl has felt. and she does it in such a "i know i'm crazy-matter of fact" kind of way. 

i plan to subject myself to research soon. (don't worry) my own research. 

i plan on blogging for a year on the different methods of taming the untamable PMS symptoms. 

i've got more research/methods to uncover, and also figure out my own documentation methods but i think i need to do this...

for my own sake - and those i love around me. 

my fear is that i wont find anything that helps and that this will all be in vain to discover that women really are just crazy. 

i'm praying for optimism

i'm praying for a stable balance 

and i'm praying.